Isn’t that an exciting shot?! Maybe not to anyone else, but to me it’s a sign that sloooowwwwwlllllllyyyyyy I’m displacing all the stuff I have in my home with….well, with nothing. Empty. Zero space. Openness. Those crates, and 6 more down in the basement, were all full just yesterday. And today? Nothing. Everything that was in them before, unused and mostly forgotten, have found homes where they will be used. This makes me feel good.
In the almost 2 weeks I’ve been doing this…purging, cleaning, organizing, selling…I haven’t dared pause and look around, because all I saw were just piles and piles of things covering every square foot of my house. All the things hidden away in the dark spaces in my house, in cabinets, closets, drawers, and the basement, were suddenly out in the open. It all reminded me of how much I needed to get rid of in order to fit into an RV. It reminded me of how much I had collected since living in this house for 5 years…and how much I’m still holding on to in the 16 years I’ve been married. It reminded me that all my connections to these things from the past has kept me from living in the now. It was a bit discouraging and pretty disheartening.
But these empty boxes give me hope. The act of giving my stuff away hasn’t really made me feel any zen like emotion. But these crates full of nothing?! Seeing them stacked up without anything inside them makes me feel lighter. And really happy! Deep breath, people, stuff is starting to come together by going out!
My mantra lately? ‘Life is a tide; float on it. Go down with it and go up with it, but be detached. Then it is not difficult.” Prem Rawal
And maybe that's where the lightness comes from. All those crates are now full of nothing to attach to. And that feels good!
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