The fog is rolling in here at Huntington Beach. I can’t see the ocean in the moonglow, I can only hear it wash in and out over and over.
I love the sound of the waves crashing-I used to have a white noise machine with other settings on it, I’d always use either the ocean sound or the rainstorm one. You can imagine my happy when the first night in the RV I heard both for real. Another gift from the Universe, who knows me so well.
However, I’ve never stayed so close to the sea before, and I find myself wondering if I’m listening to the tides roll in and out, or to an approaching tsunami coming to carry me away. It’s unsettling, but the relaxing sound always wins out and lulls me to sleep.
I hear Naturalist flipping pages in the new paperback she bought. Every page read and turned is music to my ears. Her dyslexia makes literacy something I don’t take for granted, especially knowing how hard she works for it. I’m happy that we gave her the time and space to develop her love of stories by not forcing a curriculum or timeline on her.
I can hear Sassy 5 feet away, snuggling with Frito and belly laughing. She has been my buddy through this whole experience, she’s vibed on both the good and stressful times…I’m glad we’ve had some great days searching for ocean treasures. She also likes to people watch and draw in the sand-a perfect beach partner!
My world has shrunk so that I’m mostly hearing those two things, my family and the ocean. Whoever said you can’t go back to the womb again has never tried to fit 5 people in a 30 foot RV. Because that’s what I feel like in here….like we’re all gestating and waiting to be reborn as changed people with a different family dynamic. I can see it happening, feel it, already. We have no TV, no Internet, no space of our own. We just have each other and wherever we happen to be at the time. This week it’s the beach. In another week, who knows!
I’d thought the biggest part of this journey would be getting rid of 4700 square feet of stuff in our old house, but I was wrong. The adventure has only just begun!
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